How long have I been saying I am seriously considering trying laser hair removal again? Last January, when I went to see the endocrinologist and decided to stay with the medication I am on right now, I knew it was probably the next step in reducing the hair I have to live with. In August I think I was more seriously resolved, because my ovarian cysts had finally been explained to me and I could move on from that. I seem to focus on the health concerns that worry me most, and then go down the list. That indicates to me that hirsutism is no longer my highest concern. That's pretty exciting on its own.
But I'd love to push it even further down the list, even if the results of laser hair removal are as temporary as last time (3-4 months, if you remember). And it will always be a lingering question in my life if I don't try again--what if the results are better on the medication? I'll always wonder.
Funnily enough, it wasn't so much the inspiration of others' New Years Resolutions that finally urged me to make the calls, though it is that sensation of January being a "fresh start." It's hearing about friends taking charge of their own lives and doing the things they always meant to do for themselves that is spurring me on to tackle the questions in my life. It's getting me beyond the fear of being disappointed, the fear of pain, and the fear of cost.
So I called the same clinic I went to before. The technician I used to see no longer works there, but they still have my life from 2004-2005, and I feel more confident using this place than trying another clinic elsewhere. This one is connected with a team of dermatologists (even if one of them is the one who sent me right to laser instead of trying to figure out the cause of my hirsutism), and not one of the many salons that have popped up all over the place in the last several years. You might be able to get good treatment from a salon, but I can be fairly sure a clinic like this with the backing of doctors will have the most state-of-the-art equipment and most highly trained staff. I'll know for sure by the kind of questions they ask at my consultation.
I like to think I'm going into this with more realistic expectations. I know what laser hair removal feels like, and I know the worst-case scenario results. What I don't know is how much it costs now, and how well it will do this time. So there's plenty to still be nervous about, but I also feel excited that I am finally trying it again. I am brainstorming how to document the journey this time, so if anyone has any suggestions, or anything they would really like to see, please leave it in the comments!