March 2, 2010

Hirsutism is Kicking My Butt

This post is for the beautiful young lady who recently sent me a rant that I wish I could share with you all, because it certainly summed up the way I've been feeling this week. It made me feel less like I was struggling on my own.

So this post is also for all of you, whether you've said hello or are watching silently, because I want to pass on that feeling. Right now, I'm just tired of fighting with the stubble, the razor burn, the ingrowns, the make-up. And more than that, I'm tired of it dictating what I do.

Scratch that, I'm tired of letting it dictate what I do. I'm painfully aware that it's me who decides my face needs a day off to heal, and as I cloister myself at home I watch the things I want to do pass me by. But in order to have a better shave the next day, I just sit around in hiding, feeling angry and ashamed. I let it happen.

So it's been a bit of a low week, but it'll pass. I've just picked up my fourth refill of my prescription, and I'm experimenting with some new skin pampering techniques. This is by no means an expression of defeat. I'm far from lying down. And so, for all of you who might be feeling a little down right now, a video!

Love to you all. ;P


Anonymous said...

Your post in conjunction with the video brings to mind a question:
Given a significant other to spend some quiet time alone with, would those periods of giving your skin a rest suddenly become a blessing?

Anonymous said...

Thnx for the reply to that frustrated rant!! I don't have anyone to talk to about it, so when the fit hit the shan I went to this furry little community you've created ;)
Nice new look & Cute video... =) reminded of me a short film I saw recently, I don't know if you've seen it, The Butterfly Circus? Worth watching for sure, here's the YouTube link to the 1st part
it's under a Spanish title & there are 2 parts... I loved the message... something like, the greater the struggle the greater the triumph.
Happy Friday!

Allerleirah said...

Anonymous #1 - Yours was one of the comments I thought I'd lost last month. But here it is! :)

Interesting question. When it comes to maintaining a routine like mine while in an intimate relationship with someone, I've always thought, "I'll cross that bridge when I come to it."

I think in order for an "other" to become "significant," they would need to be okay with some stubble from time to time. But, would *I* be okay with it? I’m not so sure. *lol* Something worth dedicating a post to in the future.

Allerleirah said...

J - You are welcome to come here and rant anytime. :D It gives words to the things we’re all feeling. And although I did have people I could talk to, I didn’t feel comfortable doing it, which is a reason why this blog is here today.

Man, what a great little film! You can’t help but feel good after watching it. I can’t believe that guy, he was incredible.

Thank you; I’m still working on the look. Not quite happy with it yet, but getting there.

You know, when I first read your comment I thought you’d written, “when the fit hit the shan I went furry.” I thought that was a hilarious euphamism for getting frustrated. *lol* Going furry.